The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.
Eleanor Roosevelt

So, the future – what does it hold? Truthfully? I don’t know – not yet anyhow.

I’ve been waiting for some paternalistic, authoritive being to decree what my future should be; to tell me what it is I’ll ‘be’ when I grow up. This is ironic as I have a tendancy to do the opposite of what anyone tells me to do.

I’ve never really been encouraged in any one direction in life and have needed to feel everything out for myself – it’s got to a point now though that enough time has passed and experience has been lived through to deal me a ‘sort of plan’. There’s a problem though – the ‘sort of plan’ has been presented to me in jigsaw-puzzle format – I have all the pieces but no clue as to how they fit together or what it is I’m required to create!

I think I’ve got the corner pieces sussed;

  • photography
  • writing
  • community
  • recognition

That last one - recognition - I realise it sounds a bit self-centred. I was going to change it for something else, something that didn’t sound quite so me, me, me – but, well, you can’t cheat on this sort of thing, can you.

polaroid - me and a leaf

Yes, I yearn for a slap on the back and a well-done now and again (I would imagine we all do). To be honest I don’t remember it happening very often during my formative years which is probably why I hanker for it so much now. I’m not so self-centred though that I think I deserve any of this without doing something to earn it. I’m happy to work hard – I love a challenge!

So that’s what I’m up to; sorting all my puzzle pieces. Slipping the obvious, easy pieces into place; the photography, the blogging – wondering how I’m going to deal with that big blue area of sky (my day job) and seeing if I can’t work out what the heck the big picture is supposed to be!

For the first time in my life, ever, I am going to make a plan!

Do you have a plan?

polaroid - dungeness walkway

Photos taken with my Polaroid SX-70 (always part of the plan) and 600 film.
(Recognise that bottom one)?

Forsaken

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OK, so let me try and describe Dungeness to you. Lovely, weird Dungeness – Britain’s only official desert.

welcome to dungeness!

It lies, forsaken, on the Kent coast and you have to drive through miles of marshland to get to it. There’s something uniquely eerie about marshland, don’t you think? Not quite belonging to the land or to the sea – it seems temporary and at the same time ancient and neolithic. Full of secrets.

some people!

As you pootle along in your little car you notice more and more electricity pylons grouping together and ploughing their way through the marshes to the coast. They are three-abreast at points; eagerly rushing to suck up all the nuclear-generated electricity that is created at Dungeness power station.

pylons in the background

Seeing them reminds me of the apocolyptic nuclear-meltdown nightmares I had every night as a teenager. I think everyone had those dreams in the 80s.

dungeness nuclear power station

So yes, there is a nuclear power station at Dungeness (two, actually) – nothing weird about that per-se, but it does add a certain frisson (or should I say fission) to the ambience. Oh, I’m so funny!

dungeness power station and lighthouse

This piece of land belongs to a person (not sure who) – you have to drive through gates to get to it. It was a wise investment – it has to be the only stretch of British coastline that is actually getting bigger (rather than eroding). This is made very apparent when you observe the numerous lighthouses (well, two) that have required erecting to keep up with the edge of the shore. It has extended about half a kilometer in 60 years, which is pretty epic in geological terms.

the new 1960s lighthouse at dungeness

They have a railway station. This railway seems to be of a gague totally unique to the rest of the British Isles and only special little steam trains can use it. (By this point nothing is suprising me). (And please note, I’m no railway expert).

small gauge railway - dungeness

Many of the little dwellings (you really can’t call them houses) that are scattered randomly over the shingle have been constructed from old railway carriages – plus any other stuff that has been washed up onto the beach. Some are a bit more substatnial and built of wood – like Derek Jarman’s little cottage which I wrote about yesterday. I think you’d need to be a certain sort of person to want to live here – reclusive doesn’t even begin to describe it. You would need to not need people. You would need to want to only have your brain for company.

Derek Jarman's cottage and garden at Dungeness

They do have a pub. A scary pub. It was the only amenity I could see (apart from a post box). The pub was closed, of course. There’s also a little wooden walkway that led to nowhere – why would it? This is Dungeness.

dungeness - walkway to nowhere

I don’t think I saw another human there, just crows. Crows and starlings. Where is Mr Seagull?

starlings

This should be Land’s End (the actual Land’s End in Cornwall is more akin to Scratchwood Services). This should be the end of the world.

danger of death - dungeness

I’d love to hear if you have any weird or eerie places near you – I think I’ll make a bucket-list of similarly odd places to visit around the world!

Derek Jarman’s Garden

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When I visited the ‘end of the world’ last week (aka Dungeness – which I have written about here) one place I knew about already and was very keen to visit was the late Derek Jarman’s Prospect Cottage.

polaroid - Derek Jarman's cottage, Dungeness

Anyone living in this environment is going to have a challenge on their hands, so you’d have to be very determined and creative to establish such a beautiful garden in this wilderness. It’s a little neglected and over-grown now, but you can still see the shapes and structures and some of the hardier plants are still thriving. I would love to have seen it in its heyday, I think I might try and get hold of his book  about the project and his life (there’s also this very moving article by Howard Sooley, who took the photos for the book in The Guardian).

polaroid - Prospect Cottage, Dungeness

It was also very exciting to be shooting with my Polaroid SX-70 again and using proper 600 film- I don’t have much of this wonderful stuff left now but this little cottage was definitely worth a shot or two – so pretty.

There is raised wooden text on the side of the cottage depicting selected lines from John Donne’s poem, The Sun Rising:

BUSY old fool, unruly Sun,
Why dost thou thus,
Through windows, and through curtains, call on us ?
Must to thy motions lovers’ seasons run ?
Saucy pedantic wretch, go chide
Late school-boys and sour prentices,
Go tell court-huntsmen that the king will ride,
Call country ants to harvest offices ;
Love, all alike, no season knows nor clime,
Nor hours, days, months, which are the rags of time.

Thou, Sun, art half as happy as we,
In that the world’s contracted thus ;
Thine age asks ease, and since thy duties be
To warm the world, that’s done in warming us.
Shine here to us, and thou art everywhere ;
This bed thy center is, these walls thy sphere.

February favourites

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I knooooooooooooow it’s March. I know! Here though, at last, are my February favourites…

East Sussex

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Look at this…

bodiam castle

…it’s the most perfect fairytale castle ever, don’t you think? This is Bodiam Castle in East Sussex – it’s one of the places we visited earlier in the week during a (much needed) mini-break. Do I sound a bit ‘Bridget Jones’y calling it a mini-break? It’s what we call them!

East Sussex isn’t really all that far from where I live – any of you who live in vast countries – even medium-sized countries – will probably think it’s rather amusing that I consider somewhere 120 miles away to be worthy of needing overnight accommodation and military planning! That’s what happened though – it was great!

On this little island you only need to travel a handful of miles to be in a completely different sort of place, and this is very apparent when you’re in East Sussex – so one day it was all fairytale castles and medieval architecture, the next it was Dungeness.

dungeness

Oh, Dungeness! There needs to be a whole post on you, yes, definitely. I can’t sum the place up here really, suffice to say it should be called Weirdsville.

Then a few miles more and you’re at Beachy Head – again, jaw-dropping.

beachy head

We took in lots of other spots in the area too and obviously I took lots of cameras with me, so expect quite a few views of East Sussex coming up in the next few days – it was very photogenic and I took over a million photos!

We made it!

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Well, here we are then – the one-hundredth day of winter (actually, today is day 101 – I’m running late with EVERYTHING at the moment – yikes)!

winter trees

I’ll admit it was sometimes an effort to stay positive and inspired when darkness fell not long after lunchtime and the cold winds blew, but I feel that viewing winter as a photographic opportunity and actively seeking out beauty in things that were uniqulely wintery definitely helped me stay positive and entusiastic throughout the season.

feathers and mittens

What I loved most of all though was viewing the winter experiences that others were having – some things looked familar – other things looked wildly different but they all look beautiful!

100 days of winter - flickr photos

1. Sheep watching…, 2. muskoka, ontario, 3. Day Sixty, 4. 39|365, 5. snowstorm, 6. Untitled

These are just a few from the flickr group – thank you to everybody who contibuted, I hope you enjoyed it as much as I did – and here’s the best news of all…. it’s now spring! (Apologies to southern hemisphere… although as you get better weather in the winter than we often do in the summer (certainly here in UK) I hope it means you can forgive my gloating)!

weeds

What was your favourite thing about winter? I think mine was the watery, distant sunlight – a bit like ‘golden hour’ but all through the day, all be it a short day.

Oh, and the hot chocolate :)

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